Monday, July 27, 2009
Perky female friends should die.
I don't care, I want to vent. Even if no one reads this, atleast I get the chance to get this shit out. My husband has a female friend, where as all us females have this deep down shitty feeling whether you admit it or not, thats not my case. Mine isn't deep down, I made it known. These two were friends before I came along, in which most will tell me that its none of my business. The moment I met her, I didn't like her. I couldn't stand her perky and flirtatious personality, that my blind as husband just brushed it off as friendly. But all females know what other females are trying to do, because we have used those same fucking tricks! I know what flirting looks like, god damnit. I have a friend of mine that is the SAME way, don't fucking tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about. Reguardless of this problem I had with her, I decided, 'Hey, maybe I just have something against perky people, no need to ruin a friendship that happened before me, maybe I am looking at it all wrong." That shit recently flew out the window. It really wasnt because she was female, as I had male friends as well, my best friend was male. As our relationship together progressed he expressed how he didn't feel comfortable with me talking to my best friend for reasons he kept changing, so I honestly have no clue why, but JUST because he was uncomfortable with my male friend I nearly broke all communication with ALL male friends, and if you know who the hell I am, thats EVERYONE, I had one female friend, and sh moved to Alabama so honestly, I just dumped all my friends so he would feel more at ease. Just this past December is when my husband and I were married, he soon had to leave to go to Alaska, we spent maybe a month apart. Not even a week after I come up here, he is on the phone with her and talking to her online. Thats not the problem but get this, when he drives he absolutely HAS to get off the phone with me in a rush, because he doesnt want to get in trouble for being on his cellphone and driving at the same time. But several times I have been sitting with him in the car on our way down the highway and instead of getting off the phone quickly, he will stay on with her, like he is willing to risk his safety for her but not me. That was the start of feeling just alittle uneasy. She is worth it but I'm not? Short thereafter I got knocked up. Everyone that has been pregnant knows how hormonal you can get in the first trimester cause youre feeling OH SO SUPER due to the nausea, light headedness, and the lovely bloat. Well I told him one day after watching them chat online for a while that him talking to her made me alittle uncomfortable and that if he didn't atleast keep it discreet, then he couldnt talk to her. So dont let me know about it, is all I am asking. I'm getting bigger and youre talking to another female, don't see my logic? Well then what if your dick was shrinking and I was talking to another male. Well after a few phone calls with her he seems to forget my simple request and proceeds to tell me ALL about their conversations, my hormones said thats IT. I told him no more, just stop talking to her all together, and I was sure I would calm down a few weeks after spitting out the kid and maybe this whole thing could have been back to normal with him having his friend and I wouldnt be a monster anymore. But he couldn't play along, could he? On a side note my husband and I share a certain interest in pornography, and seeing how I didnt feel like fighting with my computer, beause it was being OH SO LOVELY, I decided to see if he had any saved on his computer that I could check out. On my search, I uncovered a folder that said Myspace IM Photos, or something to that affect. I had myspace IM on my computer but I didnt have this folder, so maybe he had actually saved some photos and they automatically made a folder when he saved. Out of curiousity I click on it and I see a picture of him :) Him so cute. Then next to that picture it was a young woman and a male in a photo together, I thought maybe that was family, so I paid no mind. Next was a photo of this female with long blonde hair and I open it. I don't recognize her, so I start looking over his three photos again, and come to find thats the same girl in the photo with the other male, but this time she has her makeup on and I can see EXACTLY who it is now. Its the same girl I asked him to keep discreet and then eventually break all contact. Saved on his computer??? I opened his myspace IM and his information was already in, kinda like an automatic login. So I let it connect and suspected the worse. Being female, pregnant, hormonal and all >_<. I clicked on message history and saw messages that were from last month! And she sent on herself two days ago that he didnt respond to...but last month?? I thought that I asked him to stop talking to her like 5 months ago >_< THATS BULLSHIT. So after seeing the time on those things, I wondered "Just what the fuck was soooo important that you have to go behind my back and do something that I told you upsets me"...Its like he doesnt care about my feelings, especially when I read the message "My wife doesnt want me talking to you :( But I want to so yeah, she's just being bitchy" If I saw a male say this to me, I would stop talking to them because I have fucking respect for marriage and if his wife is uncomfortable HMMM MAYBE I SHOULD BACK THE FUCK OFF. So its not only HIM but HER as well that Im alittle peeved at. When I confronted him about it, all he did was get mad that I was looking through his stuff and HE felt HE was justified in what he was doing. My argument is that I asked him to stop and the fact that he KEPT TALKING to her is a sure sign he doesnt give a fuck, then him saying that he will talk to her anyways was just shit all by itself. The one thing I thought would help him see it my way was that I gave up EVERYONE for him and he can't break contact with ONE....ONE....ONE bitch for me??? I gave up everyone, do you fucking hear me??he STILL thinks he isnt wrong! I havent heard so much as "Im sorry" YET. All I did wrong was get curious, god fucking forbid! But he betrayed me, without much reguard for my feelings. We both did some wrongs here, but who is the bigger dick!?!?!? Thanks to him, my ex best friend wont have anything to do with me anymore...I sacrificed all my friendships for him and he can't stop talking to one person.
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